Techno Words, Mimi Defines

So un, pareho kaming walang magawa ni Randycool.

techno_randy2003: mimi may mga salita akong babanggitin sau tapos bigyan mo ko ng reaksyon mo sa mga babanggitin ko...
techno_randy2003: trip2x lng
techno_randy2003: hehe
mvmiciano: oo ba, basta di ka busy jan :)
mvmiciano: game
techno_randy2003: bored nga ako e... hehe
techno_randy2003: game?
mvmiciano: game :D
techno_randy2003: eto muna: TIPAK NG KARNE
mvmiciano: ha? anu un?? hmmm dunno what to say abt that :)
mvmiciano: yan reaksyon ko. hehe di ko masyado iniisip yang tipak ng karne
techno_randy2003: eto nlng: KATOTOHANAN
mvmiciano: truth defies clarity :D
techno_randy2003: COMFORT
mvmiciano: i call it "reward"
techno_randy2003: UTANG NA LOOB
mvmiciano: to be paid for a lifetime
techno_randy2003: EQUALITY
mvmiciano: no one is above us
techno_randy2003: nani2wla kb sa equality?
mvmiciano: yep
mvmiciano: tao lang me gawa ng ndi equal
techno_randy2003: ALAALA
mvmiciano: moving images in one's mind
techno_randy2003: BLANKO
mvmiciano: hmm. writing in a blank sheet of paper. :) papel lang ang blanko for me hehe
techno_randy2003: KOMPLIKADO
mvmiciano: more on situation. could exist anytime
techno_randy2003: ULAN
mvmiciano: pinaka astig na panahon para saken
techno_randy2003: GALIT
mvmiciano: intellectual jokers
techno_randy2003: noun ha
mvmiciano: un na, galit refers to them
techno_randy2003: KATAHIMIKAN
mvmiciano: most important element when writing
techno_randy2003: YAKAP
mvmiciano: when given unexpectedly, its sweet
techno_randy2003: TREND
mvmiciano: only for doodles
techno_randy2003: DUGO
mvmiciano: bloody hell
techno_randy2003: hehe
mvmiciano: ;)
techno_randy2003: IYAK
mvmiciano: man's way of expressing the unexpressed feelings
techno_randy2003: KAMATAYAN
mvmiciano: in the end, there's a beginning
techno_randy2003: IMPLUWENSYA
mvmiciano: everything is a choice
techno_randy2003: KAYAMANAN
mvmiciano: just a possession
techno_randy2003: SILAW
mvmiciano: sunshine shit
techno_randy2003: PLASTIK
techno_randy2003: adjective
mvmiciano: black and white
techno_randy2003: BITUIN
mvmiciano: ROYBW
mvmiciano: haha :))
techno_randy2003: LESBIAN
mvmiciano: womanizer
techno_randy2003: SIGARILYO
mvmiciano: the dirtiest
techno_randy2003: PAMILYA
mvmiciano: priceless possesion
techno_randy2003: PASKO
mvmiciano: ordinary gift giving day
techno_randy2003: BALANSE
mvmiciano: matter of being fair
techno_randy2003: IGNORANCE
mvmiciano: is next to stupidity
techno_randy2003: HUSGA
mvmiciano: shit interpretation
techno_randy2003: DUKHA
mvmiciano: pity
techno_randy2003: TECHNOLOGY
mvmiciano: essence of invention and innovation
techno_randy2003: KAPANSANAN
mvmiciano: a thought of destiny
techno_randy2003: KATAPUSAN
mvmiciano: death
techno_randy2003: ayos... hehe

the unbeatable champions of Advocate

Date: December 21, 2007

Advocate's Christmas Party

That's the ARTS section's winning performance. Well, for the record, they consistently win among the sections.

Grool.

LIGHTEN UP

“Mi, I know you can do it. Just believe in yourself and what you can do. In the battle field, get every opportunity, every material you can use to gear yourself up. Because when you start working, it consumes all your time that you have less time to equip yourself up. I believe in you and GOD does too so trust yourself and pursue the career you really want.” - Karylle Yolanda Macaranas, A friend and was a boss.

I can do this, but not at this moment. I still need something that will uplift me from this shit feelings. People, friends, neighbors, and family believe in my skills and confidence. The question is: How about me? Do I have enough strength to enter the big vs. small world?

Rolf once said on his artwork he gave to me, “Kapag nakikita mo yan. Magmumukha yang face, kahit parang mga squares lang yan na me colors…. Isang face na winisish u ng gudluck dhl kayang kaya mo lahat yan! At wag susuko, palaging be inspired dahil may mga kaibigan ka na andito lang…. wag matatakot sa kahit anu.”

Expectations – this is the most hurtful word. It is in the expense of my reputation if I turned down a certain matter that people expects me to end. What is that? A job. A job that would make them proud that they are my family, friends and “kakilala”. Expectations hurt me the most. When I expected to graduate on time and failed, I was hurt. When I fell inlove and expected to be loved, I was hurt. When I tried to be one of the best and became just an option, I was hurt. When I sacrificed things that matters to me and still failed, I was hurt.

Those things gave me so much pain and until this moment, most of it still gives me pain. I was deeply madly secretly in pain.

When I expect but a certain person failed to commit what I’ve expected, both of us are hurt.

Enough on mushy teenage childish thoughts – This time, I think of my parent’s expectations from me. How did two decades of attending school helped me grow? This time, it’s my turn to show them what I’ve got from the sacrifices they made for me to finish a degree.

My greatest fear in life: Disappoint my parents.
My greatest dream: Give out things that would make them the happiest couple in the world.

For two decades, I found it very easy to give or not to give good news from my schooling. They just let me do what I want. But now, I am their prisoner. Instead of being behind bars, I am behind the door of my room, typing on this laptop and think the possible reasons I could tell them for me to visit FEU. Yes, I became their prisoner and am under their guidance. They say its time for them to take easy and relax more since I finished my studies. Got their point.

I’m a big girl now. I have my responsibilities. No time for a wasted time. Every second counts. Got to lighten up. Kym and Rolf are right. I can do whatever I want. Its just I’m scared of the huge challenging environment that awaits me to come in. Would I be welcome? Would they admit an insect like me? Next year, I will find a working place that awaits me as I decided to go out of my room and explore the World of Errors. For now, what I need is time to reflect and see what I really wanted to be.

Mi, just pray and believe.