As the year ends, I recalled some of my experiences I went through. When I was in church on the first day of the year 2009, I realized how painful but fruitful my year was. With this, I consider myself as a survivor of 2008.
I looked back on my planner
January – time to finish and clean-up ‘the thesis’. When the honey-shit started. When I had taken my midterms exam. When I had interviewed Sir Howie and Ms Luchi. When we had a meeting with Angel Tesorero who made our term somehow ‘gloomy’. And when I received the FEUCSO tuition grant.
I marked this month – Tired and Sickening.
February – 12th was our defense day. It was Tuesday and I looked like a SHIT – such embarrassment. When ‘Clandestine’ was almost finished. When I became friends with an enemy and a rival. When I fell in love with an artist. When I started to fight of what I believed right despite the truth that it was so wrong. When I learned the debate properly. When the Executive Board was very busy with all the matters on the Advocate.
I marked this month – I am always an option.
March – Final exams done. Thesis done! Graduating students were cramming. When I felt so envious to 4th years. When my heart melt with pain. When I cried much because without him being noticed. When I started intership hunting with Dwight Sarga and Hazel Galamay. When Tita Liet arrived. When she made month’s last week both heaven and hell.
I marked this month – Month of Goodbyes.
April – Hired! when I became an intern journalist of Philippine News Agency. When I handled business beat. When I entered the press office of Central Bank of the Philippines and Department of Finance. When I confidently covered events and press conferences. When I learned the real life of being a journalist. When I felt like an insect bonding with those experienced, big-time and professional journalists. When I was shocked on how media really works. When I trusted myself to an artist. When I loved him with all me. When I can’t control myself texting. When I was accepted as Senior writer.
I marked this month – See? You’re Brave. Smile.
May – Student newspaper’s writer was back. When I started being a writer again. When I was back in the Admin beat not as secretary but a journalist. When I craved for more tsoknat. When I seriously loved him. When I hardly worked on Advocate articles. When I bid farewell to Reliance
I marked this month – Still, Attached.
June – First issue without Aubrey and Kym. When I became busy with Academics, still, Mimi works advocate. When I don’t understand myself: me and him but not really. When I bond most with the coolest people in the whole world. When I discovered life on the other side of the fence. When I met my babies in the org. When I found friendship outside the office.
I marked this month – Chickenshit.
July – Pain made me weakest for the first time. Supposedly the happiest colorful month. But what happened was, July was the gloomiest in the whole year. And when I remember, tears fall automatically. I was hurt so badly by those people whom I thought I could trust and offer my greatest friendship for a lifetime. Everything just got reversed and I was misjudged. I pity myself with this because I just came out to be quite and let things happen. I didn’t even defend my side and just listened to what they tell people about me. I am deeply hurt. Specifically with those whom I thought the most intelligent persons I would ever met. You know who you are guys.
I marked this month – Holding on. Not really a priority. I wait.
August – Revelations happened. On 24th, tsoknat blog was revealed. On 25th I gave him the book 3 unaware of his knowledge. On the following days, I was hiding with shame. On the 31st, girlfriend texted me. And it’s the end of our story. During the times that I was hiding, this particular guy unknowingly entertains me so we became good friends. Most of my acads were done well.
I marked this month – Konti na lang mi! Go go go! Aja!
September – Vigan adventure. When I bonded with the coolest family “Pamilya con Yelo”. When I came back to him. When I realized how much I missed him. When I became closer to the other. When I started a new-paged story. When I missed two DLSU games in UUAP. When I had coffee with the cutest guy in FEU. When I re-read and re-read the pages of Dave Mckean’s Cages. When I finished the first storyline of Been-there-Bean. When I smiled truly once again.
I marked this month – Now here he comes…Aabot pa ba kami?
October – Almost everyone celebrated their birthdays. When half of the month was so quick and the other half was the opposite. When I had taken my final finals exam. When I wore FEU’s uniform for the last time. When I wanted to feel graduated but cant. When I was excited to seek new experiences outside school. When most of my babies cried. When I valued all the memories that the campus will leave in me. When I bid goodbyes in Academics. When high school friends hated me because of not attending our get together. When I created my blogspot blog. When I deleted all the pictures in my friendster account. When I received Mr. Squareface’s face.
I marked this month – Forgotten. Happy still.
November – 15th was the first visit as alumni. 24th was our day still. When my mom arrived from China. When I totally forgotten what happened on 25th, Tuesday. When we texted using two different network companies. When I finalized my resume. When I prepared for my corporateworld adventure. When I liked him most and suddenly became my inspiration.
I marked this month – Ended good.
December – 11th was my job seeking day. Hired. Still nervous. The slowest and the quickest, most boring and fun, happy and sad, etc. When he had his haircut. I also had on the 10th. When he appeared so ‘gwapo’ which made me smile. Happy Krismas! Welcome year of the Ox!
I marked this month – Corporate Mimi.
Only one prayer entered in my soul: Please give me cure from all the pains I obtained in the past 12 months of my life. I thank God for the unending strength He granted me despite of all the hardships I went through. For now, I ask for cure. –mi
Hurray 2008!
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